My name is Isaac Mussman.  I am 21 years of age.  I recieved Jesus many years ago in a church.  I was baptized at 5 years.  I did not regularly attend church for many years.  I'm thinking about 13 years or around that much time.  I backslid from the Lord in my junior year in class. I met up with an old friend in whom I had in mind of marrying.  Lets just say that I fell into fornication.  I became very bitter and angry when the relationship went sour.  It was even to the point of desiring not only to kill myself, but also to kill others.  Anyone who crossed my path the slightest, I wanted to kill them.  One day, in the summer of 2000, I stuck a gun barrel in my mouth contiplating pulling the trigger.  Continually thinking about hell prevented me from killing myself.  A few weeks passed on by and then I was involved in a wreck that should have killed me.  My truck was totaled and tipped on its side.  There were sharp objects in the front passenger seat that would have normaly stabbed me, but were found behind me in the extended cab part of my truck when it was tipped over.  I walked away with only a tiny scratch on my chin.  Please remember that these events happened while I was in unforgiveness.  People cannot enter heaven with unforgiveness in their heart.  Read the parable of the unmerciful servant, and Matthew 6:14-16.  Two or three days later after the wreck, I intensly began to go over the events that happened that night.  Then God spoke to me.  He said, "Look how easily that you could have been in hell.  All I would have had to do was to let you die".  Then I started feeling his tenderness around me, loving me as if he had his arms wrapped around me.  He also said this, " Let me be the God of your hopes, your dreams, your plans, your fears, your insecurities, your worries, your hurts.  Let me be the God of your everything."  As He drew me back with His tender, lovung mercies, I began to cry.  As tears streamed down my cheeks, I gave my life back to the Lord.  I forgave my ex-girlfriend and have been serving Jesus eversince. HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!