Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation
of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord,
my strength, and my redeemer.
Psalm 19:14
The unbeliever's future is already settled.
Only an act of faith in the acceptance of Jesus Christ can regenerate him
and reverse his destiny.
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My name is Sid Alexander.
As I write this I am 70 years old and I'd
like to share my feelings with you. The last 10 years have been the
most beautiful part of my life because I am learning how to share God's
love with people that I know and come in contact with. If anyone would
like to get in touch with me you may contact me at:
331 Walnut St.
Mound City, KS 66056
(913) 795-2442
e-mail: Sid7391@earthlink.net |
At an early age (about 8 years old),
I went forward at a Billy Graham crusade and accepted the Lord as my Savior.
I can recall that it was a glorious feeling for a youngster growing up
in a christian family, but I also remember that as I would try to share
this feeling with friends they would act as though there was something
wrong with me. They would find reasons to play with someone else. I don't
remember talking with my family about this, but I guess I decided
to be two different people. As one person I would love Jesus and pray silently,
and as another I would play and go to school with my friends but not talk
about Him and sort of act as though I didn't know Him if anything was said
about Jesus.
This seemed to work for me so I continued this
same pattern throughout my adult life and all my business dealings. I have
just recently realized how selfish this was of me, not willing to accept
any pain or uncomfortable feeling after all that He suffered for me. When
I got to thinking about it, I compared it to someone being my close lifelong
friend in private, then one day going to a party where this friend
was, and Him acting as though He didn't know me. I would have
been very hurt, as I imagine He must have felt all those years. (
I have asked and He has forgiven me for doing that). I will
never put Him away again. I love Him dearly and I'll always be proud
that I have a personal relationship with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
I am adding the following part of my
testimony only to show how I believe God works with us. He puts us
through the fire to burn out the impurities, like a goldsmith refining
gold, he keeps refining until he can see his reflection, I believe God
keeps refining us until he can look at us and see his face. But we
can survive if we trust in Him and hang on to our faith. (Trust in the
Lord with all your heart and lean not to your own understanding.)
In 1961 when I was 24 years of age,
I was driving along with my wife; Jenean (age 19 and 8 1/2 months pregnant)
and two children (Ann Tonette; age 4 and Mark; age 13 months) home
from a weekend visit with our parents. It was on a rural road in
early August, with the corn fields standing 6 to 7 ft. tall, that we approached
a RR track with no signals and a train appeared out of the corn field.
I have no memory of this but I have been told that I did not have enough
room to stop, so I slammed on the brakes and got the car into the ditch
on the side of the road the train was coming from. I had actually
come to a stop but was so close to the track that the step on the baggage
car caught my rear bumper and we got pulled into the moving train.
Jenean was thrown through the windshield and
into the ditch. I was thrown into the windshield head and shoulders
but got caught on the steering wheel and was thrown back into the front
seat. My jaw was pulled out about 3 inches, my neck and throat were
cut, and several bones were broken. Ann Tonette was killed instantly and
Jenean died on the way to the hospital and lost the baby. Mark was
thrown clear somehow and just had a small cut on his head.
I was unconscious for several days and when
I came to, I learned that they had already buried Jenean and Tony.
Mark was fine. I knew I had to survive
to take care of him, so I started fighting to get well. I had
terrible guilt over what had happened. (I haven't told you that I
had serious ear infections for many years before this, and was hard of
hearing).
After several operations and a lot of care
in a huge hospital that I had been transferred to, I was able to go home
for a while. Then just 5 months after this in December of 1961,
my dear mother died with leukemia at the young age of 52. A few months
later, I had to go back to the hospital for a mastoid operation on my ears.
Soon after the operation, I got spinal meningitis and was in isolation
for several days and not given much hope to survive. . .but the Lord pulled
me through that also.
After a couple of years, I met
my second wife. She had a son (Robin) whom I adopted and we started
a new family. (Mark & Robin were both 3 years old).
In 1968 we had a daughter; Sarah Marie, (who has grown into a beautiful
Christian woman, married with three boys and they all love the Lord.)
Later we had two more children (Vicky) who died two or three days later
with phenomena and (Bobby) who died with crib death when he was about two
months old. Then when Mark was 21 years old, his apartment caught
fire and he died about a month later in the hospital.
I suffered terribly with all of these deaths
and wondered why God was punishing me. I know now that He was
not punishing me and I know that someday I will know why it all happened.
I also know that he brought me through it all to do something for Him.
So far, the only thing that He has given me to do is this web site to share
his Love with the world. If He shows me something else to do,
I will be ready.
Ten years ago I met my current wife
Carlene. My life has changed to the point that I have peace in most
everything I do. We not only have a relationship, but we have
fellowship daily. We love the Lord and worship him together and are
looking forward to a future filled with the Lord's blessings.
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Sid Alexander
I Love the Lord.