I have loved the Lord all my life. I can't remember a time that He was not a part of my life. But you know that even though I have had the Lord in my life all along,  that doesn't mean that I have always followed what he has wanted for me in my life. There have been many times that I have left the holy highway and found myself on a dirt road going nowhere, lost and broken. If I would have just listened to the Lord and obeyed His word I would not have had to go through some of the harder things I have had to endure.
I know that those things I have suffered were because of my lack of faith and my lack of confidence in the Lord in me. I have gone through deep depression, so deep that I could hardly get out of bed in the morning. The only thing I thought of all day long was going back to bed, but even in the darkest times I know that the Lord was there with me trying to show me the way to freedom. I remember one day He asked me to give Him a sacrifice of joy! What a thing for the Lord to ask of me when I could not see two feet in front of me and I had no joy, none whatsoever to make a sacrifice with.
I told Him to ask of me anything else and I would give it but joy I did not have to give. He said GET SOME, I said and where do you get joy if you have none? The Lord in his great wisdom said "That's not my problem,  its yours." So I thought how can I get joy when everything around me is falling apart?
So for two or three days I thought about it and I came up with the most wonderful plan. I knew that the Holy Spirit is our teacher and guide He has all the wisdom of the ages and is ready to impart that wisdom to us if we will just seek Him. So I went to the bible and read about the Holy Spirit and His wonderful ways and I once again got to know His beauty and grace. And what did I find in his presence  - JOY.   A joy that was unlimited.
I began to come out of depression and find that the world was a beautiful place once again. Now I could go to the Lord and say I have joy to sacrifice to you. Do you know what He said to me?  He said that I had already given Him that sacrifice by just finding the Holy Spirit again and not putting Him back in the very back of my life,  but by bringing Him to the front of everything I do.
Now I keep the Holy Spirit with me all the time and we have conversations about everything that I do. He is my teacher and guide and I could not make it through this world of pain and hurt fullness without His loving presence. The Holy spirit is the still small voice that you hear when you become quiet and ask things from God or have a prayer for another.  He is the one that guides us through this maze of roads we are on while we are looking for the highway to heaven.
So this is the testimony that I want to give. That to live a good and happy life and to do the things that God has for us to do so that His glory may shine in each and everyone of us,  we must not forget that we have the most wonderful guide in the Holy Spirit.
Cindy Campbell
Texas